.Superman

Its hard to think with your head. Normally every decision we make is filled with emotions. Think with your head Ash, not your heart. And its so hard to be objective right now.

And to u (u know who you are)..Thanks for everything aite..will miss you=)

In a long sms i sent Faye today i typed, “Life isn’t that perfect..Thats why we work our asses off to get what we want instead of being happy with what we already have..”

I realised that what i said makes sense to a certain extent…Some people do not appreciate the simple things of life that are just there..Azhar once said, “its the simple things that matter”. N bro, i agree with you ah!

But thinking about it, if we are happy with what we have, we will never go far rite? cos if u are contented with the way things are, you will not have motivation to work towards ur goals in life. So, its about striking a balance and making urself n the people around you whom you care about happy.

Of course i want more…i dun expect the sky to fall for me but heck i want to achieve my goals that i have set whether in my personal life or career pathway…

And a quote from Jerome N Gopi said to me that got me thinking about interpersonal relationships:
” It sucks to be in the middle…Cos ur neither there nor here and you could end up losing at both ends…”

.Ash

Its 1:30 am and tmr’s my comm issues paper. I’ve strategically planned (yea right) that i should be able to sleep now and wake up at 3 to catch the manu game and then sleep again and wake up at 9 to study for comm issues. well, i don’t think that’s gonna happen ah beb!

I really feel like sleeping and its one of those nights that u toss and turn in bed and u just cant to seem to fall asleep cos something’s bothering your mind. Well, here they are:

1) Should i get a job? there are openings at ishop- i can join andrew and gang, i can either go back to tuas or i can fly back to ritz…but i feel so lazy to work, but i need that cash desperately so that i can pay my parents back!

2) you. Not U but yea, you! (even im confused)

3) Im hungry. A hungry man is an angry man. A hungry man also cannot sleep. I feel like ordering that not so cheap over-rated Macs but i wont cos got fly lice (fried rice) in the microwave!

So many things to think about…yet i find myself in having no time to really put things in place..hope things get better when the holis start..which is in a few hours after the bloody exam paper!

.Ash

lalalalalalalalala……….john mayer ah beb!

“I wanna lie, lie to myself
myself and someone else
just to feel something, something that hurts me
the hurt makes me feel alive”

It has been three years since i held your hand.
since i kept stealing glances at you in class.
since i kept going band practices only becos you were in band too.
since i kept letting you cut my queue in canteen to buy food.
And yes.
i miss holding your hand.
i miss stealing glances at you and wondering if you’ll look back.
i miss going band practices to see you cos it was the only time i could talk to you and laugh my heart out.
i miss letting you in front of me so that you can eat first.
And although i noe i will never get the chance to do all those things again i want to say:
Thanks for letting me hold your hand when you felt the pain.
Thanks for telling me the truth that only the two of us will share.
The only regret i have is not being to tell you that I will always love you and miss you.
Thank you for being my Aisyah.
It has been three years since i lost you to cancer.

So finally school’s all over. Had a really stressful two weeks with work, work and more work. Thanks to all my groupies that kept me going. You guys and gals mean much more to me.

I really miss Pasir Ris. its weird. really. I’ve been staying in the west all my life (clementi then Bukit Panjang)..and whenever i go to the east its a total different atmosphere. the air is cooler, and fresher and the company is good. Now that school’s all over, im going to dan’s and kick azhar’s and dan’s ass in W.E (bring it on!). Those two are really nice peeps. And dan, sorry for your lost…we will help you get through it ok?

LOVE IS IN THE AIR la…The closest people to me (you know who you are) are occupied with their own lovey dovey people. So cute la…As for me, aiyah..as azhar said, ” Love is tricky”. (thank you newswriting for teaching me how to quote properly!). I really don’t know what she is thinking. As hard as i can say i don’t care and im not affected, deep down, i feel the ache (cant think any other word la beb). And the only thing that has got me throught the last week was the heavy workload. I will try harder and i will make my move cos i really want this to work. And i hope she reciprocate the feelings.

Ok, charity shield time. Adios Amigos!

.Ash